Blog 1

I don't really know what to do in blogs. I guess it is going to be the voice that narrates my life except I'm going to write it down. And apparently use correct capitalization and spelling, unlike everything else I type.

So, let the narcissism begin.

I've always fancied myself a pessimist. There was always something about wanting to be what people tried to avoid, and accepting it, that appealed to me. But I've been thinking about it, and I'm really quite the optimist. Most people try to avoid bad things, but I embrace them and know that without bad things our lives would be boring.

I'm a high school girl, so obviously I'm supposed to be involved in all sorts of drama, because of all the cliches and everything, but I'm involuntarily involved in a surprisingly small amount of drama, and here's where my obvious character flaws kick in. I try to get involved in problems. I involve myself with things that really would not be my problem otherwise. I do it because if I didn't, there would be no plot to the story of my life.

I look at myself and everyone I know as the characters of a book. This seems like a clever analogy (or, rather, a not-so-clever one) but I really have thought this way for as long as I can remember. I find it helps to deal with all the crap that i have to put up with, not that my crap in my story is any more important to you than the crap in your story is to me - which it's not. Sorry.

But that's another thing that looking at your life like a book changes. It helps you to see the story from other people's point of view. Whenever I watch a movie or a show, or read a book, I am always the one who like the bad guy, but not for the usual reasons. I always either a. feel bad for them or b. empathize with them, which I guess are sort of the same thing. Every 'bad guy' has a back story just like the good guy, you just don't know it. If you knew about his troubled childhood, and how his mother died at a young age and his father was a drunk, you might stop seeing him as just a 'bad guy' and start seeing him as a human being.

Now try this with people in your everyday life. Try to see why they are the way they are, why they do the things they do, and you might stop seeing your story from only your character's point of view.

Wow, there was a lot in there for a first blog. I don't think that I'm going to be able to find anything else to write about. I don't know how often I will do this, if I say I will weekly or daily i will undoubtedly look back at this when I'm posting my second blog next year and laugh. I think I can promise once a month. Maybe. Let's see how that works out, I don't really want to commit to doing this too often, as you read on you'll learn that my character also has commitment issues.